Sunday, March 31, 2013

Has ‘Facebook’ Taken Over the Reigns from Uncle Jo Stalin?





There is, you may observe, a dichotomy here.

On the one part there is a requirement, from ‘Facebook’ to make friends. It is, after all, a ‘Social Media’ site.
‘Facebook’ even says to you, “Would you like to make friends with this person?”
There is an encouragement to add to your list of people that you communicate with.
This is, we are reliably informed, the purpose of a ‘Social Media’ site.

So I did that.
I have added many people. Many ask me to ‘friend’ them and, similarly, I ask people to ‘friend’ me.
It works.
I have lots of people with whom I enjoy (and I hope that they, too, enjoy) a social discourse carried out textually via the Internet.
These are people that, for the most part, I do not know. I have never met them and many of those are people that I should dearly like to meet.
I have people from all kinds of faiths and beliefs to chat with. We can disagree and we can discuss but there is no rancour, no disharmony.
All of the people with whom I have contact—some more regularly than others of course, are intelligent. They are all capable of stringing together an idea and putting it into a cohesive set of words that describe their thought processes.
In other words, they are all good people.
Even though they were chosen by me—or I was chosen by them, at random, maybe, or because we saw a glimpse of them in a comment made to someone else, they are still good people.
Every single one of them.

So I tried to add some more people. People that seemed to share a viewpoint or a set of pleasures (science fiction, for example) that I felt I could share.
These are people that have a liking for Isaac Asimov, Arthur C Clarke, Robert A Heinlein, et al, and so have a similarity of taste to my own.
How interesting to hear their views on the stories written by these great men of fiction.
I cannot.
‘Facebook’ will not let me.
Not the people that I asked for mutual contact. No. ‘Facebook’.
As I understand it, the onus is on the people who you contact to ask for an ‘Add’ to say ‘yes’ or ‘no’.
It seems not.
It appears that ‘Facebook’ is the arbiter here.
One or some, I don’t know which, of the people I asked said they didn’t know me. That’s fair. I don’t know them either.
They were just being honest. No problem with that.
But as a result of that innocent comment ‘Facebook’ has blocked me from adding more friends.
I have become a social pariah—a social media pariah, moreover!

Hence the dichotomy.
‘Facebook’ wants to encourage you to increase your circle of friends.
‘Facebook’ wants to limit your circle of friends.

What, then, is the point of ‘Facebook’?
If I remove everybody on my list that I have never met in person—those that I never knew before ‘Facebook’ came along, then I don’t need ‘Facebook’. I can easily e-mail everybody I know just like we did before ‘Facebook’.

Make up your mind ‘Facebook’.
Tell us what you want us to do and then keep your nose out. We are, for the most part, grown up people that can decide for ourselves.
Use your ‘blocking’ and ‘vetoing’ power for something more useful—like getting the paedophiles, scammers and con artists off.

Let us peaceful people who just want to socialise be alone to get on with our lives in friendship.

Saturday, March 30, 2013

‘My Name is a Number’ Wrap Up





We have, in a small way, written a story here.
The original story idea that appeared in Little Nuggets in our Heads on Tuesday March 26th has been gradually expanded to form a short story.
There is now a decision to make.
If we decide to proceed with it we can now examine the grammar, punctuation, spelling and syntax to see if it flows properly.
Up to this point we were concerned, primarily, with the story but, inevitably, there were parts as we wrote it that needed the touch of a rough polish to make it more readable for us.

Are the things now mentioned—grammar, et al, important?
Yes. They really are.
In spite of the way things are written on Social Websites and in SMS format, there is a need to try and make the reader understand the emotion that it was written in without using colloquial and slang phrases; we may reserve those, used sparingly, for the character’s speech.
Remember that people read things differently to the way that it was in your head when you wrote it. Part of the ‘polishing’ process now means you have to read it again and change some of the way you have written it, change some of the words and, maybe, insert more descriptives.
But.
Beware dangling modifiers (dangling participles).
“I am going to see the old banana lady.” Means what? Are we going to see an old lady that sells bananas or are we going to see a lady that sells old bananas?
In normal syntax for an English person reading in English we would assume that the sentence refers to an old lady selling bananas but it is an assumption and not a positive fact. For someone who has English as a second language—no matter how fluent they may be in English, the sentence may be confusing since their syntax (in their native language) may be different.
Similarly there are ambiguous statements that may need to be resolved:
“Can a cow jump higher than a house?”
Well... yes. It can. Houses cannot jump at all.

Dangling modifiers and ambiguous statements are often hard to find. This is because we have written the story and we know what it was that we wanted to say.
Some time ago I posted the idea that people will stick to their own ideas of what is right and wrong and will only accept evidence that supports their view; anything that is offered that opposes their ideas will be rejected, they will find some way to discredit it no matter how strong the evidence is for that opposition.
It is the same for writers. We are convinced that what we have written is some sort of Holy Gospel; it must, at all costs, remain inviolate! The writer knows best.
It is sad to say that, often, the writer does not know best.
We need an independent viewpoint.

We can, of course, use the spell check on our computer programme to do most of the donkey work when it comes to certain aspects of grammar, punctuation and spelling but remember that certain programmes do not like, for example, ‘passive voice’. There will also be potential problems with spell check that will find ‘hat’ acceptable when you meant ‘that’.
Then go through the story again and take out all those ‘very’s. The word ‘very’ has no place in our stories. Ever. Anywhere.
Take out any gratuitous bad language. Is it necessary to the plot? Sometimes you may use it in speech because that is how people do speak but there is no place for it in the text.
Except for rare instances (as in our story here) numbers are always written down in text form. We do not say that ‘there are 12 members in the troop’ we say that ‘there are twelve members in the troop’.
Delete abbreviations. Don’t use ‘can’t’ in the text—use ‘do not’ and ‘cannot’. If you are having trouble making ‘do not’ flow then reword the sentence.

Careful reading is a must. Careful reading by a third party is also a must. Asking your Mum to read it will avail you little because she will hand it back to you and, in a voice filled with awe, say, “That is brilliant, dear. You must get it published instantly!”
A professional third party read is a must. There are professional proofreaders and editors. The best ones, as in all cases in every profession, are not cheap. You must cut your clothe according to your purse or hope that a publishing company or agent will take up your story and get these things done on your behalf.

Finally, we have to read the story critically and examine whether it is worth pursuing. Not every story that falls out of our heads is going to dominate the literary market. Some might not even make it as far as the waste paper basket.

This one will make it to the bin. No further.

Friday, March 29, 2013

My Name is a Number


Now we go over the whole story and 'fill in the holes'. We read it critically - not as a 'story'. We are looking at logic, flow and are there any contradictions? We don't want someone with blonde hair at the beginning having long flowing raven locks at the end!

We have not yet looked at spelling, grammar, punctuation. That comes later when it is time to 'proof read'. We might even farm that out to an editor, for example.

We now have to decide if the story is worth keeping. We have read the previous 'Blogs' so we know that we had to start at the end but does it have an end that is satisfying - to us. Does it have a middle, does the start have sufficient impact. It is important for the start to 'hook' the reader so that they want to read more.

Finally, we must look at making a title. 

These thikngs are what we look at now:



A huge fist smacked me in the left shoulder; the world spun around me just as the mass of wet leaves on the trail came up to hit me on the face.
Pain. My world is full of pain. The room swam around; rough hands hold my arms and feet and throw me into my bunk. Someone said something about the enemy but my mind cannot focus on their words, only the pain. Just for a moment I imagine I saw Sgt 598’s face, blurred, peering at me but it wasn’t his voice. I don’t recognise the voice. It is coarse; it tells me to try and relax, that I’ll be fine.
Someone pulls my blanket up then there’s a sliding sound and a bright light. So bright. I cannot see anything...

*

I was brought up in a tenement building just north of the border. The building was sixty-five stories high but the top three stories are just places for the machines that operate the lifts and direct the water.
The roof is covered in ten feet of water. If there’s a fire the detectors in the top three stories empty all that water into the tenement that’s on fire. The rooms pretty well fill up but the fire goes out. It happens about once a month. I suppose that people set fires on purpose for some reason.
There’s a heli-pad sitting over the water. That’s the law. Every high-rise has to have one. Mum said that the architects complained at first because it limited their idea of ‘pretty’. They had to put up with it; it’s the law.
Mum was a whore. She supposed that she was getting to the end of her career now. She told me that age catches up with everyone in the end. Years ago the gangs had told her to do what they told her or they would kill her mother. They killed Granny anyway. For fun, I think.
I don’t remember Granny. Mum says she was really pretty but she wouldn’t go whoring for the gangs no matter what. So, in the end, she was killed. Anybody who is of no use to the gangs tends to die.

I started working for the gangs when I was around ten years old. They gave me a knife and told me to go kill someone. My schoolfriend.
I told Mum. She shrugged and told me to go kill him. Either that or die.
They gave me a girl to play with after that. Just for a few hours. I didn’t really know what to do with her. I had to ask Mum. Mum explained about that so I should know what to do next time.
One of the more senior gang members, he must have been around seventeen or eighteen, mentioned that there was trouble in the south. There were rumours of war there but the gangs in their tenements would sort that out; this was not our problem. We heard gunfire and occasional explosions in the distance but it sounded no different to the gunfire close to us in our neighbourhood. There were always battles being fought between the tenement gangs. Our gang controlled three tenements but that could change; tomorrow we could control four or none.
There were other rumours, too. We knew that one of the rumours about a ‘green’ area further north must be some sort of joke; perhaps it was ruse by enemy gangs to get us to desert so they could move in and take over our tenements. None of us knew what a ‘Green Area’ might be. We supposed that it was a line or group of tenements that were painted green. Tenements that were safe, where there were no gangs. Nobody was that gullible.
One of the rumours concerned me. I heard, through one of the junior members, that a ganger on the twenty-third floor wanted me dead. I don’t know why he wanted that but rumours like that had ways of becoming true.
Around four or five in the morning when it was really dark and raining hard, I slipped past the lower floors. They had left only two guards on the exit at the Ground Floor where their main office and storeroom for the drugs were. The rest of the guards would be inside—high or asleep, no doubt.
I thought that I should be able to ease past them but one of them seemed restless, more observant than the other. I came up behind him, put my blade under his chin, pushed his head forward and pulled the knife out across his throat. No blood on me but plenty on the floor. He was busy trying to push it all back in when I squeezed past him and slipped quietly out onto the street.
It was raining heavily, enough to keep everyone under cover or indoors. I thought I should head north. I wanted to see if the stories about the ‘Green Area’ were true. I was going to die anyway, being caught out in the open by a rival gang was a death sentence; I preferred to be killed by a stranger than one of my ‘friends’.
A few tenements north was the river. I had heard about it but never seen it. It was bigger—wider, than I thought it would be. Perhaps all this rain had swollen it up. It had rained incessantly for months; it seemed that there were rarely times when the sun shone on us.
Over to the east I could see a bridge. There were a few lights on it that reflected into the water. The bridge would be guarded. The gangs the other side would want to keep us from the south out of their territory.
I crept along the banks keeping to the dark parts under the road, slipping on the shiny stones and occasionally finding sticky mud. I put some on my face to try and stop my skin showing up in the odd light that filtered down from the streets. Not many lights left now but those that were still lit posed a threat to me right now. The rain soon washed off the mud, it was a stupid plan.
The bridge was made up of steel girders. Unpainted for years the steel was now mostly rust but, maybe, it was strong enough to hold my weight. I thought about waiting for a while to see if a Traveller came by. Perhaps I could get a lift from one of them; I could pretend to be their helper. I had seen Travellers from time to time. Where they came from nobody seemed to know but they always had foodstuffs, drugs and weapons with them. Even high up in the tenements we could hear the clip-clop of their animals. Often there were six or seven animals tied together with loads strapped to their backs.
They never stayed long. Sometimes they had helpers; someone to feed the animals and carry the stuff for trade. Maybe they would stop for an hour and then they would set off again and disappear to some unknown, to us, destination. The last one to visit our tenement went off with the neighbour’s daughter and one other girl—the gang had sold her for weapons, drugs or food. Young girls were worth more than boys especially if the girls were pretty. Not many of them are.
I decided that waiting for a Traveller was too dangerous. Crossing the river by climbing under the bridge to avoid detection was marginally safer even in the dark. By the time I had made my way across under the bridge it was full light. I stopped at the far end under a badly corroded I-Beam and watched for a while; sometimes I let rainwater from the bridge run into my mouth.
The streets the other side looked deserted. Deceptive. Every now and then a face would peer out of one of the windows. They were checking the streets.
I wedged myself into one of the cross members of the bridge and slept.
Once it was properly dark again I crawled out and made my way through the glistening streets, picking my way through garbage that stank in the wet air. I passed more than twenty blocks before the countryside became quite suddenly open.
I didn’t understand the clear area until an aircraft appeared with bright searchlights underneath it illuminating everything on the ground. I froze, immobile hoping that they were attuned to movement. I didn’t know about infrared. Another aircraft appeared and landed vertically beside me. They made a terrible, loud clattering noise but I could still hear the noise of gunfire coming from the tenements behind me; the first aircraft responded with an ear-piercing buzzing noise and a gout of flame from some huge gun.  Out of the corner of my eye I thought I saw large portions of the tenement crash to the ground. Two men with guns pointing at me half lifted me into the aeroplane. The whole thing took only seconds; the aircraft took off and headed north.
Men in uniform questioned me for hours. I explained that I had been trying to escape to a place that we were told existed north of the tenements. A place where we had been told that we could live in peace; I explained that we were sure it was a myth. I told them that I had been marked for execution but I had no idea why.
They told me that I was looking for The Colony. They laughed. I don’t know why they laughed, I had no idea what a Colony was much less where it was.
That was how, at fifteen, I joined the Army. I thought I had escaped but, of course, I had only dodged the gangs briefly. They killed my Mum. Mum would have said it was all right; that she was too old for whoring anyway.
One day I should have to go back. The Government never let you live somewhere else. Once you were registered in the tenements then that’s where you lived forever.

*

The Army sent me out to the Colony. There were around a thousand, probably, on the transport. We were strapped into uncomfortable seats and fed by a sort of conveyor belt from which we were told to take one pack each.  This happened three times a day. We sat there for almost two days taking it in turns to go to the toilet. No windows, no information other than that necessary to keep us in order.
We were a thousand young souls ready to be butchered by the enemy, the Sergeant told us. He smiled. Briefly. Coldly.
Just before we arrived at the Colony, we had a visit from a top-brass. He was a Staff Sergeant. We all had to stand in line, to attention, and salute him when he appeared in our group.
He looked about as old as anyone could possibly be without actually dying. I had never seen anyone that old before.
He stood in front of us. Not tall but imposing. Medals and stripes everywhere, it seemed. He was the highest rank we would ever be likely to see, he told us. There were higher ranks than him but they all lived in holy places because they were all ethereal, immortal.
I wanted to be one of those and wondered how anyone would become ethereal.
The Staff Sergeant told us that we were all expendable. He informed us that we were merely numbers and that we no longer had names. We only existed as dots on some master plan in one of the holy places that we should refer to as ‘The Higher Echelons’.
None of us was expected to live very much longer. The average was three tours among the enemy before we ceased to exist, before we ceased to be.

When we landed on the Colony it was like being transported to paradise. Beyond the terminal we could see trees and grass; the air was fresh and cool; people walking around us were smiling and happy—perhaps they knew we were being sent out to die, to protect them.
Why would they care? Their lives were not at risk unless we failed. But failed at what? We had no clue about the enemy. We had never been briefed about them or their capabilities. At least among the gangs we knew whom we were up against, we knew that anybody in a Police uniform was a fair target—not that any of us had actually seen a Police uniform. It was another legend, another myth.
Now? Who was the enemy? We had no idea. Our training seemed incomplete. We had marched around a parade square in the rain. At some point there had been a strange smell in the air, one of the other recruits told us it was the smell of the sea but then he was told to be silent and smacked around the back of the head with a flat leather whip. Talking was not permitted. Talking led to rumours; rumours led to lack of courage. We needed courage to die.
There was a list of our numbers on a large board just inside the main doors. They were in sequence as you might expect from the military mind. My number, 5794477 was one of the highest numbers. I was new. They probably expected me to be among the first to perish.
After the number was a space followed by a ‘T’ and another number. It seemed that the last number was a room in the terminal. The first two digits represented the floor and the last three were the room number.

We had some more training in the use of firearms. Most of it was focussed on what not to do with a gun, like point it at someone else unless you were going to kill them. We were never actually allowed to fire a gun but we went through all the motions leading up to it and the things to do afterwards. We even had dummy bullets with red stripes on the side so that we could practice loading and unloading the rifles and pistols.
We had lectures on what to do if we were in a very cold climate and how to survive in very hot climates. None of us knew what any of this meant. We had never been in the sort of heat and cold that the Corporal was telling us about.
A Sergeant came and told us about Rocket Propelled Grenades—he called them RPG’s. He said they were very useful and proceeded to explain their use. Another Corporal came and explained about explosives of different kinds and how to shape a charge and detonate them.
It was all academic. Never, at any point, were we allowed to hold anything hot or sharp. We might hurt ourselves and that would never do until we were ready to be killed.

*

About one week after I told myself I was officially bored I was told to report to Transmission Room 18. I asked around the dormitory but nobody knew what a transmission room was or where it would be.
In the corridor was a Sergeant. I stopped and saluted him and begged his pardon but could he please tell me where Transmission Room 18 is, as I have to report there.
He told me off for not reporting to him correctly but then told me where to go to find the transmission room. I had, in my confusion, forgotten to humbly submit my rank and number to him.

Transmission Room 18 turned out to be one of many basement rooms containing white boxes. Each one was about the size and shape of a coffin with a short cable plugged into the floor coming out of the narrow end. At the side of each one was a flat plate on rollers with some sort of telescopic device attached to the plate.

I introduced myself to a very pretty nurse in the tight white uniform. She smiled and told me that just 477 would do, we were not to be so formal here.
She smiled again at me. I asked her for her number but she giggled and said that all three of the nurses in that room were called ‘J’.
When she told me to undress I looked for a cubical but she chuckled and told me not to be so silly. I was just to undress and get in the box.
It looked inside like the chest freezer that one of my Mum’s clients had; I had peeked in it when I was waiting for her, it was full of what looked like hard, featherless birds. Mum always sounded as if she was enjoying herself in these places; I hope she is enjoying herself where she is now.
‘J’ examined me minutely from top to bottom. She told me that it was always better if someone died ‘out there’ because coming back with something not working properly was much more expensive. She needed to check that everything worked properly. She sounded as if she enjoyed her work, too.
I told her that Mum had been a whore so I was used to this. ‘J’ laughed and said this was also only a professional examination. Her breathing was very heavy, she wiped a drop or two of sweat from her brow and said that she was satisfied that I was good to go ‘out there’.
Of course, I wanted to know where ‘out there’ was but she said she had no idea. It is where the box sends you. She looked down at me and ran her finger down my chest. Just for a moment there was a sadness in her eyes but it soon went.
Straight from the shower and into the box. The water on the skin helps the conductivity of the contacts on the body. All the contacts are on the base of the box so that they connect as soon as you lay down.
‘J’ kissed her finger and put it on my lips, straightened up and pressed an unseen button.
I heard a hissing noise and watched the lid of the box slide over me. For a few moments I felt claustrophobic and pushed up against the lid but found I was pushing against something else hard.
A voice complained; they told me to go back to sleep.

The next morning I showered and shaved, no mirrors. Nothing reflective anywhere. One of the other Troopers said that I must be new because I looked lost. I told him that I had just arrived from the Colony.
I received my weapon, ammunition and clothing then formed up outside. It was hot. Really hot—and sweaty.
The Room Sergeant told us that we were to patrol east. If we saw something suspicious we were to shoot it and ask questions later.
I asked him what the enemy looked like. They all looked at me as if I had committed some terrible sin. It was apparent that nobody knew.
Nobody knew anything. Where we are, why we are there, even how long will we be here? Just do as you are told and hope to survive your tour of duty.

*

I’m cold. Not shivery or numbingly cold but my feet are far from comfortable. The blanket is on the floor, must have kicked it off at some point this morning.
Morning? Is it morning? Who knows? Who can tell?
A glance at the thermometer at the end of the room tells me it is registering 23°. Centigrade. Cold.
Odd that. On our tours up in the cold belt it was -15° outside. If it dropped to -20° it was a cold snap; if it rose to -12° we were having a heat wave. Sort of a local joke. Perhaps only us military people will understand that.
We kept our room heated to 17°. If we had it warmer, more comfortable, the fuel cells would run out before the end of the month when the resupply came in. No fuel for heating or cooking for a day or two.
We still had communications providing we kept the batteries warm. They had their own thermal wraps. Inside we should still have to keep our cold weather clothing on to survive. The room was insulated but it didn’t take long for the temperature to drop.
Outside the problem was the wind. Constant wind that burnt the face if you didn’t secure your mask. Of course, you had to unclip the mask to fire your rifle or risk smashing the thin plastic with the recoil of the weapon.
Then you had to clip the mask back on quickly to prevent frostbite on your nose and ears.
That clip was always a problem. We had thin tactical gloves that kept the hands warm—sweaty sometimes, but they were thick enough to hinder feel. We often told our Higher Echelons that another type of fastener would be better. ‘Velcro’, perhaps.

We didn’t need our rifles very much, to be honest. Only to practise at the target runners. I only ever fired my rifle three times in anger. Each time I had to pay for the round fired. No bodies were found so there was no evidence. “Unauthorised Expenditure of Government Ordnance”, it said on the chit that I got every time.
I remember the first time very clearly. We were on patrol in a blizzard. Close to the room; in those conditions you never went farther than the rope that secured you to the room and the next guy in line.
I saw a movement. Hazy, through the snow. Unclipped the mask and brought the rifle up, sights ‘ON’, safety ‘OFF’ and align the sights. Nothing for a few moments.
I muttered into the throat microphone, “Target 017°.”
Somebody, it sounded like Sgt 598, replied softly, “Check, identify, fire.”
The laser finder in the sight turned red just as I saw the blurred shape again. I fired. Certain that I had heard a soft thud I lowered the rifle and clipped the mask back on.
I returned the rifle to a ‘safe’ condition and confirmed ‘kill’ with the Sergeant.
“Good, Trooper 477. We will confirm when the weather clears. Let’s get in.”
It was quiet back in the room. My bunk was on the bottom of the four layers; I was still too junior to get a top bunk where it was warmer up by the ceiling.
We all knew who was junior and who was senior by our numbers. None of us had names. Maybe the Higher Echelons knew our names but nobody else did.
We never found a body. Perhaps it was buried under all that snow.

I was on the top bunk now. Two tours in the cold belt and three in the tropics had earned me the right to any bunk I wanted.
I looked at the thermometer again. 23°. Yet it felt cold. We were accustomed to 40° plus outside in the tropical belt.
We were surrounded by jungle. Hot and really humid jungle. Everything was wet. If you weren’t very careful you got fungus and mildew everywhere. There were stories about people dying from the mildew; they got eaten up by it. Stories. Apocryphal, no doubt.
The fence that divided North from South ran through the middle of our room—well, not inside, obviously!
They say the fence went all around the World. We don’t know. We were told to stop anyone going through it. There were 2,000 Volts in the fence. We couldn’t believe anyone would go through it. Nobody told us which direction this ‘enemy’ was supposed to come from. Just ‘stop them’ was the order.
One of our junior members slipped on one of the trails. His rifle touched the fence. He went limp. He was dead. He never sparkled or jumped around, he just went limp. We looked at him for a moment and then removed all his gear. We left the body there. The jungle needed it more than we did.
We often found animals that had bumped into the fence. Dead. Eyes staring at some distant horror. If they were small enough we threw them off the track into the jungle for the jungle to eat. We couldn’t risk eating them ourselves.
One morning we were mowing the track for the target runners. Practise time. We had found a strip between the trees that was, relatively, straight. We kept it clear of vegetation so we could use the target runners there.
A target runner is the size of a tennis ball. From the centre axle on the ball there is a rod each side, the rods are as tall as I am. They are joined at the opposite end to the ball by a horizontal bar. The periphery of the ball has four ‘legs’ a little shorter than the rods. By standing the ball on the rods the ball can be rotated to wind up the spring, letting it go means the ball will now spin the legs and go loping off at quite a high speed. The rods stop the ball spinning.
Nobody wants to be the person to set the ball going.
There is always a clever person who will take a pot shot at it while the guy releasing the ball is still holding it.
These troopers I work with are not very bright. Some of them are mentally inert. When someone plays a really funny joke like that he finds himself lashed to the end of the bunk beds and the truth beaten into him.
People have died releasing the ball. Usually they are people who have tried the joke. We’ve lost a few troopers like that. Extra rations for us and nobody ever queries their death. Just a number to rub off the board back at HQ.

I pull up my blanket, get snug and rub my eyes. It is time to get out of bed and check my kit—clean the rifle.
Just feel a bit lazy this morning. Morning? Is it morning? Maybe. There are no windows in the room.
Who is making the breakfast today. If it’s morning we need breakfast. There was talk yesterday of beans and eggs on toast with real coffee from the Colony.
Talk. There is always talk. The World is full of rumour.
Most of it is generated by stupidity. One of the Troopers said that his number is 588167, he wondered where the other 580,000 Troopers were. I told him it was unlikely that anyone would be number one. They all looked at me as if I had just fallen out of a tree.
I take a deep breath. More of a sigh really, I suppose.

A sliding sound makes me open my eyes. I feel restrained as if I’m in a box. There’s a bright light in my eyes, I can’t see anything.
The light moves. Still I can see nothing.
“Be calm, be still,” a gentle voice tells me, “Just rest. It takes a while to adjust, 477.”
After a while I sit up and look over to Sgt. 598’s box. It was still sealed.
The young lady in the tight white uniform put her hand on my shoulder, “He didn’t make it. I’m sorry, Cpl.”
I’d been promoted, then.
She was accustomed to seeing us all naked so there was no embarrassment at watching me dress while she wrote down her findings.
“You are assigned two tours in HQ,” she told me, her hand resting gently on my chest.
I smiled back.
“First? Breakfast, please.”
She grinned, “Must make sure you are fully functional before anything else.”
This was another ‘J’. I had never seen this one before. They were all attractive, desirable.
“Not just one week in the Colony this time?” I asked her.
“No,” she told me, “HQ. Amongst the Higher Echelons.”
I was inexplicably terrified.

*

I shuffled paperwork. None of it meant anything to me. Just lists. The whole office seemed to be some sort of stores system where we recorded things consumed and things supplied.
I never found out where the ‘enemy’ were or where I had been. That all seemed to be classified. Only the ethereals would be allowed that sort of knowledge.
Occasionally I saw an ethereal in the corridor when I was going to the mess hall or back to the accommodation block. They never said anything; they never even looked at me. I never existed. I was only there because I had earned the right to be spared from death for a short while.
I tried to find out if the fence went all the way around the world but there was no answer. I only learnt that there were rumoured to be thousands of rooms along the fence in the tropics and around the cold belts both north and south. Ten Troopers per room plus those on leave from the enemy meant there were close to half a million men deployed out there. Only guessing. What do I know?
The resupplies went out in a constant stream. Sometimes there would be equipment but mostly it was batteries, fuel cells, food and ammunition. Huge quantities of ammunition.
What could they be shooting at? It could not possibly be all for target runners.
Now we were sending explosives. More people were being specially trained in blowing things up. The war was escalating.
Where? I had never seen anything approaching an enemy other than three vague glimpses through the snow. What were we protecting out there?

My time at HQ came to an end.
I went back to see the ‘J’s and automatically stripped off. This ‘J’ was familiar, I had seen her before but I couldn’t place her exactly. She was soft and gentle, warm, yielding. Bliss.
She said I was fit for transfer, smiled and pressed the button. The lid hissed shut and I was back in the bunk.
It takes a short while to acclimatise. Even after five tours over three years it was still unnerving to be sent somewhere unknown to do something—we had no idea what that ‘something’ was.

The Sergeant called me over. He asked if I was the new Corporal. He instructed me to get all the Troopers fallen in outside in line.
It was raining. Cold, driving rain that soaked through everything immediately.
I asked the Sergeant where we are, this is new for me, I told him, “Aye, Lad,” he nodded, “New for you. You’ve just been on the practice camps playing with target runners, you have. This is real now.”
I turned to face the Troopers. They were, all of them, older than me, or looked it. Past them there was a fence. In the fence was a large grill door. There were signs, they warned of high voltages.
Beyond the fence were buildings. They were sixty plus stories high.
“Atten... SHUN!” I roared.
The Troopers all came to attention. I did a smart about turn to face the Sergeant.
He coughed lightly, “Some of you know that I have been on this tour for some time. Some of you know that few of us are likely to survive a full tour. We will do our best to complete the objective.
“Objective one: Destroy those vermin filled buildings behind you.
“Objective two: Survive.
“Objective two is hard. Why? Because the vermin are better armed than we are; they have more money to buy weapons than the Government does and because the High Echelons don’t give rat’s arse if you live or die just as long as, eventually, that lot is cleared. Then the next lot. After that? The lot behind that one until they are all gone. Until we, those that have God on our side and righteousness in our pockets, are all that is left on this green and pleasant land.
“The bit that is behind me is green and pleasant because that much has been cleared by our dead comrades of yesteryear, it has been watered by their blood. That which is behind you is now our job.
Good luck. I’ll see you when you get back. If you get back.”

The gate swung open, we marched through and immediately broke formation, scattering into a loose line abreast.
“Does it ever stop raining?” I asked myself and then recognised the building to my front left. It had a huge faded ‘K’ on the side. Memories of Mum flooded back.
The Trooper carrying the radio fell forward on his face into the mud. As he was falling I heard a ‘crack-slap’, the noise a high velocity round makes. The rest of us also pitched forward, we tried to bury ourselves in the mud to make ourselves as inconspicuous as possible.
Gradually, inch-by-inch, we crept forward until we reached a mound of rubble. It was all that remained of a tenement block.
Whoever was shooting was good. He was probably a senior ganger who had been trusted with a sniper rifle. I often wondered, when I was young, where the Travellers bought all these weapons and ammunition.
I scanned the floors going from left to right until the end and then up a floor to scan from right to left. I followed this zig-zag pattern until the seventh floor, third window from the right. The muzzle of a rifle was protruding from it.
I called softly over to the Trooper on my left, “Do you think you can lob a RPG into that window?”
He grinned at me, “No sweat.”
Rolling to his left to take advantage of two large blocks of rubble, he sighted along the barrel of his rifle; the recoil moved him backwards a couple of inches. He grinned again as he watched the familiar spiral of smoke from the grenade.
We all saw the flash inside the room followed a couple of seconds later by a dull thud.
Just to be safe, I scanned the rest of the windows but none of them were open.
I spoke quietly to the guys either side of me, “That will have woken them up. They will have spoken to the people in the next tenement, too. They know they are under attack, they know that they must kill us or die themselves.”
I paused for a few moments and then continued, “I used to live here. These people have no mercy, no compassion. They are not to be thought of as human. At all. Our job is to wipe them out. Let’s do that. Pass that along the line.”
A young Trooper looked over the shoulder of the man on my right, “Some of them might be innocent, Corporal.”
“Innocence does not exist here. For them life is a disease, it clings tenaciously to them; we shall put them out of their misery by providing a cure,” I patted my weapon, “These are the tablets they need.”

We moved forward carefully. At last we were close to the first tenement. Two Troopers went forward and placed charges; neither of them made it back to our lines.
A few gangers, young boys, came out and crawled around the base of the tenement, hiding behind wrecked vehicles but we were able to pick a couple of them off; the third one was just about to remove the detonator when I triggered it. He turned into a fine mist for a split second and then disappeared into the dust and debris from the base of the building. The rest of the tenement followed downwards.
We cowered under our protection of the old tenement and waited for it all to die down.
Strangely, when we got our heads up again there were some people wandering around in the dust cloud. They were staggering and coughing until we dropped them with a few rounds out of our sense of compassion.
I told the boys to wait until dark before we moved again. Four of them had night vision glasses; they stayed on watch as it became darker. By the time it was full dark the rain had turned from being a downpour to torrential.

We snuck out to the second tenement on our list. This was the one with the huge ‘K’ on the side.
There had been no intelligence as to the capabilities of the gangs. My knowledge was old and sketchy at best. My skill had been with a knife but I knew they had better weapons somewhere. Whether they had IR or night vision I had no idea. We just had to risk it; perhaps the rain would cool us down and mask us a bit.

This time it was my turn to go up to the tenement with the explosives. Myself and the young lad who had asked me about ‘innocents’ went up to the building with the rest of the Troop watching and covering. In truth there was little they could do, they were unlikely to see anything in these conditions—we just hoped the rats in their nests would be the same.
We set the charges around five in the morning. I knew that most of the enemy would be asleep or drunk on chemicals by that time. The whores would be tired and sleeping, we just had to watch for the odd guard and, maybe, the occasional one who had got up to use the toilet.
I heard a sharp crack from behind me. Nothing from above but I automatically looked right towards the doorway in case a guard decided to get wet and come out to investigate. Nothing. I relaxed and set the rest of the charges.
It was all strangely quiet. Nobody moved anywhere around the tenement. Somebody reported to me that they had seen a window open and someone had stood in it, urinating. They finished emptying their bladder inside where they lay dying.
We moved back towards the fence. When we were clear of the rubble line I detonated the charges. We all turned and ran, using the dust cloud as cover. We dodged the mounds of rubble until we hit the line of bracken and bushes. The path was slippery with mud and wet leaves.
We were less than fifty metres from the fence when automatic fire from one or more of the tenements opened up. Rounds were smacking into the ground and whining off rocks and old concrete all around us. I turned to give covering fire although I was never quite sure from where the fusillade was coming.
I had only loosed off a few rounds to where I fancied I saw the sparkling of muzzle flashes when a giant fist smacked me on the shoulder.

*

I woke up lying on a soft bed. One of the ‘J’s was taking my temperature. All the ‘J’s were tanned with strange features. They were all beautiful. One of them had told me that ‘J’ was short for ‘Jururuwat’, or something, in their language; I think it meant ‘nurse’ but I’m not sure.
‘J’ was speaking, “You will be all right now, 477. You are with us. We will bring you back to health.”
“We got them. We brought down two rat’s nests and slaughtered the gangs,” I tried to tell her. Perhaps I was boasting, perhaps I just wanted to let her know that what she was doing was worth it—to us, if not for her.
“Now they’ve got you. Rest. When you are feeling better we will test you,” she smiled and stroked me gently. Already I felt much better.
I dreamt of Mum and wondered how many innocents we had killed when the two tenements came down.

I bet they were grateful to us.